Saturday, December 19, 2020

so, i've lost track of everything, and that's ok. i got very stressed out over my body changing in ways i don't like and just stopped functioning for a while. posts here will fill out when i'm done building my diet.

i'm going to need to rewind to 2013 and do a final scrub over everything before i'm able to refocus and get back to doing some work, but it really relies on halting the detransition. there is simply no existence on the other side of a detransition that i don't want. i will shrivel up and cease functioning and die.

this is a record that has some surface interest, but kind of continues to fall into the same hole that all of these vocal records do - the tracks kind of explore an idea or an aesthetic for a few minutes, but don't actually go anywhere. it's the add generation - they have no attention span, no concept of process or development. and, it's kind of all that so many of them want; my request for something more developed and written is largely alien to the bulk of them. but, all i hear here is a proof of concept - i want to hear this taken beyond the realm of an abstract idea and worked out into a finished product. i'm starting to realize i'm not going to get it...

but, if bjork was on to something with medulla (even if the idea is ultimately properly credited to autechre, or john balance, perhaps via the cocteau twins or dead can dance), the evidence of it is just building. there's a developing genre, here. and, while i may have to wait to get what i really want from it, it might be just around the corner.