Monday, August 11, 2014

he's having such a primal struggle with that jacket of his. it really generates so much empathy. i remember this time my jacket wouldn't stay on, too, so i can really relate. solidarity.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-oqAU5VxFWs


it's just always struck me as a very uncreative and overly poppy take on psych (albeit with some cow punk influences), although i spent a while around '01 trying to draw some influence from it because the singer i was working with was very much into it. it's not that it's bad, per se (the high point of the disc is the transition between the two king of carrot tracks), it's just that it dramatically pales when you try and compare it to much of anything. i mean, if it's psych it's pretty tame for 1999. if it's cow punk, it doesn't have the kind of off-kilter percussive intensity the genre needs for propulsion. if it's pop, it lack universality.

the flip side of that is that i can't tell you what kind of lyricism (i hesitate to use the word 'poetry') to like or connect with. they're really primarily a vocal-driven act, and if you don't like the vocals or otherwise place this kind of lyricism as central to your musical interests then you're probably not going to connect to the records. he could probably be doing spoken word and not lose any urgency, as far as most of his fan base is concerned.

the only way i could interpret it was either as an artsy counting crows or as an rem or pumpkins style act trying to do floyd covers and falling flat on it's face. so, i ended up sort of getting the point in terms of the ideas he was expressing and then pulling influences from other places...

....but i certainly remember giving it a really thorough listen in an attempt to try to get my head around it and simply not hearing much depth in it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6jtZx9LNpAY

you know, if you slow this down to 1/2 speed, it could be a my bloody valentine song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MF90rX43VpE

you know, if you play this at 1/2 speed, it could be a smashing pumpkins song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1MMDugt8ZRk

you know, if you slow this down to 1/2 speed, it could be a radiohead song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-LOgMWbDGPA

you know, if you slow this down to half speed, it could be a 90s grunge hit.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZqK97av7I3s

the unfortunate reality around the situation, though, is that it's an open question whether this is a few bad apples or something that is actually permitted by the hierarchy. i'm not going to write an essay, but what we today call "paedophilia" was an integrated aspect of roman social behaviour. pederasty has an intriguing history over the centuries, modulating rather regularly between social norm and outright criminal behaviour. it may seem outlandish to most people alive today, but it's actually rather likely to find it's way back to social norm some time in the future.

in the classical roman period, pederasty had a partial religious function and was very normal amongst the (pagan) roman priesthood. when christianity was either created by the state or adopted by it, that institution of roman priesthood was converted into what eventually became the roman catholic church (there's a thousand years before the orthodox church split off, then another 500 until the reformation). christianity might publicly oppose pederasty on moral grounds, but the priesthood carried over the tradition from the pagan period (as northern europe carried over santa claus and chistmas trees from the indigenous german religions). it's been with us for the entire history of christianity, coming in and out of the public spotlight as social attitudes about the practice have changed in favour of or violently against it.

so, this whole thing is embedded deeply within the church hierarchy. pederasty seems to be carried down from mentor to student within the framework of the church hierarchy itself. it's really questionable whether the church is going to be able to reform itself of the practice, or if the whole structure needs to be abolished.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0M1XVE9W67g


when i was in my early 20s, i took part in an experiment that tested what kind of sexual reaction adults have to sexualized portrayals of children. i want to be clear that this was a voluntary (and paid) study, rather than something mandated by the state as part of an evaluation of some sort. i wasn't told that the study had to do with children, i was just told it was a study an sexual arousal. i'm not sure i would have taken part if i knew it was about children. i was mostly attracted to it because i was a big thomas pynchon fan at the time; i had this idea that i'd be conditioned to imipolex g, or something.

but, what they did was hook my penis up to some electrical equipment, ask me to wear some glasses that flashed erotic images of children at me and measured the physical response. i didn't demonstrate a response, and passed the control (which flashed me adult porn and then asked me to think about making out with my girlfriend), so i can officially declare myself not a paedophile. i guess there's some relief in that.

afterwards, i spent some time talking to the students that carried out the experiment and i was apparently rather unusual in my complete lack of response. apparently, the vast majority of adult men will demonstrate a sexual response to sexualized images of children - and of either gender. i didn't tell them, but i happen to have identified as transgendered even at that stage and was between periods of treatment for it. so, maybe i wasn't the best subject. i may have even skewed the data, mildly.

....but i was an outlier, either way, and what i learned from listening to the students really changed my understanding of the factors that lead men to physical arousal. up until that point, i had a standard pseudo-scientific quasi-leftist position that sexuality is a complex mix of environment and genetics, but that it's mostly genetic. the "born this way" perspective. the results of this experiment forced me to modify my views to male sexuality as being fundamentally opportunistic in nature. that is, men will become aroused when they have an opportunity to be aroused and considerations such as age and gender are mostly secondary to that opportunism.

extrapolating that to a biological context actually makes a lot of sense. logically, the optimum behaviour for men from an evolutionary perspective ought to be simply to maximize the amount of offspring. that should mean that men should be physically aroused by just about anything, as it's a game of probabilities for them - the more sex they have, the more offspring they produce and the greater the probability that their genes will carry on. as is the case with most species, the quality control in choosing mates is largely a responsibility of the females of the species, who are consequently much more difficult to arouse.

what i'm getting to is that pederasty may end up being a more natural aspect of human sexuality than our culture currently acknowledges. i think this is very complicated, as i agree that consent is a blurry concept when applied to children. but, if the studies state that most men are aroused by sexual portrayals of children then dealing with the ramifications of that needs to be more subtle than stamping a social taboo on it.

rip robin williams

part of robin's talent was picking great scripts and then breathing life into them. this wasn't his most popular film, but it was his best.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdgGxgg91Tc

(link is to a segment of what dreams may come)